Everyone looks at him. “They’re taking the time to give me this big party, after all, so I can find someone. “What’s wrong?”, “I thought you would have left.” The head lifts, the eyes suspiciously watery but the smile shockingly bright. This was really obvious.”, If that made sense somehow, Lan Wangji missed it, and it must be painfully obvious, because Wei Wuxian starts laughing again. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. I haven’t seen you in years, and I’ve wanted you the entire time. Why don’t I help you get dressed?”. “Wei Ying.”. He allows himself the indulgence of wondering only for a moment before he forces himself to continue on as normal, turning his head away. It’s good here; they make it with lotus.” But then, before Lan Wangji has to take it or refuse, he pulls back. Lan Wangji’s head is swimming, and he just stares. “Wei—”, But Wei Wuxian surges upwards and stops his mouth with a single finger, keeping anyone from seeing what he’s doing by bringing their heads unbearably close together. Recognize what you have accomplished by pausing, reflecting, and treating yourself. Either his brain is breaking or his heart is. Knock next time!”, “On what? He meets Wei Wuxian’s eyes again, feeling his ears burn. I really couldn’t get out any other way, you see. If there's one piece of advice I could give to you all,…” Many of us dream of owning our own business without thinking about the skills needed to succeed. “I—”, “No, it’s okay. Jin Zixuan chokes on air, apparently not having heard this before. Except lately… I guess lately I’ve been thinking that maybe that’s not good enough after all.”. He pulls it out, grateful that he’d thought to bring it again, and opens it, ready to be patient. Everything he could possibly say feels inadequate to describe someone this endlessly wonderful. The lanterns illuminating the hall and making him glow. “Your Highness,” he says. Maybe he knows it’s all for him, that everything is always for him. Have you been here before?”, “Then I’m really impressed! Wei Wuxian!”. Slowly, he reaches up and touches his face. Life goes on, whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown, or stay locked in the past, thinking about what could’ve been. “I love you, Lan Zhan. I agreed. “You mean you’re not? Who’s going to love him? Lan Xichen brings up the invitation later, when he and Lan Wangji are discussing the day’s events with their uncle. Look around and choose your own ground [Chorus] For long you live and high you fly And smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry And all you touch and all you see Is all your life will ever be [Verse 2] Work Search: Jiang Wanyin seems ready to fight everyone on everything all the time at the slightest provocation. Wei Wuxian drags him from stall to stall like a hyperactive child, stopping every time he finds something he likes to show it to Lan Wangji and smile that unmistakable grin. Immediately, the two men assure her that of course they will. The flowers are beautiful, and in this area of the gardens, the night is quiet. “A-Zhan, you—you—” After a long beat, he just buries his head in Lan Wangji’s shoulder again, holding on tight and apparently giving up on conversation. He eats breakfast and remembers that Wei Wuxian wants to see him. Lan Xichen smiles back, but his eyes are worried. He’s the worst.” He scowls. He waits until nine o’clock. Wei Wuxian is staring at him. “Oh,” he says at last, remembering the pull he’d felt in his hair as he’d left. Greedy. It shouldn’t be enough. He’s never run so fast—out to the gardens, into the city, onto the road. Stay and talk to me.”, Wei Wuxian makes an annoyed sound, his hold on Lan Wangji’s wrist flexing. And probably not anyone else, either, because he’s too busy being a sad sack at home and moping all over the palace and completely ruining his good looks—”, It doesn’t matter that he’s obviously being baited. Don’t get in trouble.” Not for me, he doesn’t add, but he thinks it. “I knew you couldn’t stay away. Normally he chatters, but now he just sits, staring at the book until Lan Wangji starts to worry he’s said something to offend. Five: Wei Wuxian, Wei Wuxian, Wei Wuxian. Lan Wangji looks down at the book in his lap. Why are you acting so shy now, when you have me all alone in my bedroom?” Lan Wangji can only sputter in response, and Wei Wuxian says, sounding delighted, “Don’t be like that. And before you even think about saying it’s none of my business, let me make it clear that you weren’t the one who had to get him drunk last night and listen to him go on about how he’s unlovable and going to be alone forever.”, “Yeah? Good, I think I heard Father—” She cuts herself off and whirls around. He stares into the distance. He bows politely. You can’t just say things like that!”, “Ah. You? A moment later, a space in the middle of the room clears, and Wei Wuxian steps forward hand in hand with a beautiful girl who looks shell-shocked with happiness. Had he seemed so despondent and despairing that his brother had thought he needed cheering up? They’re perfect for escape routes, secret messages, and bringing supplies in and out during a siege. Where you gonna sleep tonight? For caring about his sister. There are many people who believe their dreams have a deeper meaning than what they seem like on the surface. Here are seven choices you'll regret at the end of your life if you don't do something about them today. “Hello, A-Zhan. It’s adorable, and Lan Wangji wants desperately to kiss the look off his face. You usually leave hours before this. He gestures at her to continue until it’s heaping and then starts counting out the money. From what Wei Wuxian was saying, I thought you were going to be ten feet tall and have achieved immortality.”, Jiang Wanyin ignores him. He could present this at the door and slip into the palace and—. I was there for a little bit once. “You were going to agree! Lan Xichen joins him after a few hours, sitting nearby and doing his own work. “If not, I’ll still have to call you something else.” He licks his lips, and his voice goes low and playful. Don’t you think I deserve the best?”, “All right, all right.” Wei Wuxian draws his legs up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them and resting his chin on his knees so that he’s curled into tiny ball. His fingers find only smooth skin where there should be a line of silk. The king and queen will expect me to have someone in mind, at least.”, “Oh.” He should leave it at that. They might try to carry you off to hoard your smiles all for themselves! He enters the banquet hall, he makes his way to the dais, he catches Wei Wuxian’s eye. Lan Wangji remembers how infuriated about it he’d been at the time, but now when he thinks of it, he feels impossibly fond. “Wangji, please, tell me what’s going on.”, Lan Wangji stares at his brother. “You should do it more. He looks back down at the mask. “Yes, always. Lan Wangji feels abruptly guilty to be one of them. I'm sorry: you were right (except about that one. Naturally, Wei Wuxian has other plans. Why do you think I came to see you?”, “You came to see me,” Wei Wuxian says slowly, like he’s carefully feeling his way through a dark room. You did it again! “Lan Zhan, I’m not the one who’s in someone else’s bedroom, alone, trying to ravish them.”, Lan Wangji feels his ears burn. Neither of them seem to have any idea what to do with their tongues, and their teeth clack together unpleasantly once, but Wei Wuxian is clutching desperately at his shoulders and moaning into his mouth, and it doesn’t matter if it’s awful, because it’s perfect anyway. “A-Zhan?”, No one has called him that since his mother died, but he nods anyway. Wei Wuxian would probably just laugh and say, Lan Zhan? He misses Wei Wuxian all the more knowing they’re so close and that—maybe—Wei Wuxian might want to be here. “Rabbit-gongzi, how intimate of you,” Wei Wuxian says, arch, leaning towards him. “Fair enough.”, Jiang Wanyin blinks at him, momentarily derailed, and then he visibly decides it doesn’t matter, turning back to the true object of his ire. There must be a good reason. “Go back to the party. If your dream is related to a single-time activity (like going to Australia at least once in your life), this guide won´t be very beneficial to you. “It’s not so bad,” Wei Wuxian says. I could do whatever the fuck I wanted to you, and no one would stop me.”, “I can’t,” Lan Wangji blurts out, and Jiang Wanyin grabs his sword hilt, his expression ugly. Like for once, I can rest my feet by the side of the road I’ve been running down, and you’ll watch for wolves. It’s really hard when there are so many, but if I don’t let them all say hello, I’ll never know if my future spouse really was the best one.”. Lan Xichen’s eyebrows shoot up, and he glances at Lan Wangji, who returns the look with a frown. He has to be perceived in pieces, bit by bit: fingers then wrist then bicep. His thoughts churn, disorderly and uncontrollable, making a shambles of his focus as he sits in the library and stares at the same piece of paperwork for what might be hours. Wei Wuxian doesn’t seem to mind. You’d better treat my Li-jiejie with more respect than that, peacock.”, The transformation from embarrassed young man in love to offended, puffed up heir to the Jin Clan is both impressive and immediate. Wei Wuxian stares at it in confusion. After this, Wei Wuxian will choose someone to marry. It takes a while for everyone else to settle down, but at last Jiang Wanyin is scowling at him from ten feet away, his arms crossed defensively over his chest. “I did understand it.”, “I know.” Wei Wuxian smiles, and Lan Wangji adds, “You can borrow it.”, “No, how could I? “Sorry,” he repeats. Wei Wuxian turns away from her, and then they’re looking at each other, and Lan Wangji feels sixteen years old again. Possibly a heart attack. “You do?” His face lights up. Lan Wangji watches silently for a while, since there’s clearly no danger to it, and it’s wonderful to listen to Wei Wuxian’s bright laughter. Jiang Cheng, if you’ve gotten me a prostitute—” He stops abruptly, his gaze focusing on Lan Wangji’s face as his eyes widen. “Peacock, if your hands go anywhere they’re not supposed to, Jiang Cheng and I will cut them off.”. She bows far more deeply than necessary, which truly demonstrates how troublesome the prince must be making himself, and flees. He looks like trouble, like he could give Lan Qiren an aneurysm just by existing. “Wangji. left kudos on this work! “Wei Ying. I want you to remember me. “This is enough.”, Lan Xichen’s smile slips a fraction. It makes him look soft and approachable, and Lan Wangji wants to make him put the mask back on so no one else ever gets to see how perfect he is. No, I meant—” Wei Wuxian leaps to his feet, grabbing Lan Wangji’s wrist. Lan Wangji follows because the rest of his body is attached to his arm, so he has to, and because following Wei Wuxian is always easier than watching him walk away. Have I ruined everything? He opens the door to Wei Wuxian’s bedroom and races into the hallway past Jiang Yanli and Jin Zixuan’s shocked faces. Lan Wangji looks away. Years ago, in fact, the very first time Wei Wuxian had looked at him and said in that teasing voice, Lan-er-gege. “You know, I’m really starting to get the impression that you don’t want to talk to me at all.”, Lan Wangji misses the proper smile immediately. He can’t stop it. “You have got,” Jiang Wanyin says, “to be fucking kidding me.” He looks up at the sky, pinching the bridge of his nose and closing his eyes. “A-Zhan? Wei Wuxian was vibrant and wonderful and everything he’d ever wanted. I promise I’m decent again.”, When Lan Wangji does, Wei Wuxian is standing just a foot away: too close for sanity. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Lan Wangji doesn’t move, and Wei Wuxian tilts his head to the side. He doesn’t trust himself to get home that way, and he wants to remember tonight. Lan Wangji would be jealous until—until—until nothing, he reminds himself. I wasn’t miserable during the entire 19 years that it took me to reach my dream job. He really shouldn’t, but— “Baby,” he whispers. It starts tentative, but Wei Wuxian digs his fingernails into the back of Lan Wangji’s neck and pulls away long enough to say, so close that Lan Wangji can practically taste the words on his tongue, “Lan Zhan, more,” and that’s it—they’re lost. When it becomes clear he isn’t going to either leave or start a conversation, Lan Wangji stands up slowly and bows deeply. Superheroes Lyrics: All her life, she has seen / Oh the meanest side of me / They took away the prophet's dream / For a profit on the street / Now she's stronger than you know / … I’m sorry. At least then he wouldn’t be able to see his options. It’ll cause comment—more than that. He wishes he could forget; he wishes he could pause the memories and live in them forever. “You don’t need to remember me.”, Wei Ying gapes, and Lan Wangji feels a moment of petty joy that for once he isn’t the one being thrown off his rhythm. The queen was watching me so closely after last night!” He takes a step back. Lan Wangji kisses the sound out of his mouth, tasting his happiness. “A-Zhan?”, Wei Wuxian leans his head back so he can pout up at him from his position on Lan Wangji’s shoulder. If he’d known, he would never have—” He stops. The door? That’s enough for me.”. There’s a coughing noise from behind him, and then the hands fall away from his face and a forehead thunks down against his back. I want to dance with you, he imagines saying. And besides, Wei Wuxian was right the night before—if he doesn’t meet as many people as possible, how will he know which one to marry? “Ah, sorry,” Wei Wuxian says, pulling away the instant Lan Wangji reaches for him. He’s the one who’s not good enough for her! He looks back down at the mask. Notes: When was coming up with things to stick in "Frog, Beast, Fish, Idiot," I thought I should do Cinderella--for about two seconds, before I realized that would be a Whole Fic.So then I wrote the whole fic. The prince and princess both studied here.” As did their ward, before you threw him out. You waited for me. 8 Signs That Your Soulmate Will Soon Show Up. “I’ll miss you.” He itches to take Wei Wuxian into his arms, to kiss his hair and smell the scent of his skin. You decide who you want to become. God is in the Details. You must have a really good spice tolerance, A-Zhan! “Wei Ying cried?” he demands. Not pushy. If that’s what you want,” he adds quickly, suddenly worried that Wei Wuxian has tired of him after all. It’s not precisely unusual when trying to follow Wei Wuxian’s leaping thoughts, but this seems more senseless than most. “If a present is a person, doesn’t that make it seem like they’re probably a prostitute? He should. It’s like talking to a wall.”. I never want to be with anyone but you. Not for any other reason.”, “How did you— Oh, you said you were from Gusu. And they might distract from your forehead ribbon. “Right,” Wei Wuxian says slowly. 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